I am probably one of the most impatient people I know. I am also extremely indecisive, but once I finally make a decision I am set, but that’s a different post. When I am ready for something I am ready NOW! Not a year from now, not a month, not even an hour! I plan a lot. My plans change, I have no issue with that, but I love to have lists and plans made far in advance.
When I was in grade eight I had planned out all the courses I would take in high school. I really couldn’t wait to start. Then in high school I planned for university, I think you get the idea. Now that I have decided to have a child I am ready now. I think it’s worse to just be sitting, waiting to start trying, as opposed to waiting for the baby. Once pregnant, there are new changes every day that I can learn about and explore. Worse case, I don’t get pregnant and then I’m left to wait a YEAR until my surrogate starts trying. Work can only keep my mind off it so much. Summer will fly by and maybe September, but then I’m stuck thinking, planning, waiting. Hopefully I won’t be stuck waiting; instead I will be pregnant and every day I will enjoy the new life growing instead me. No matter what, patience is for wimps and patience is not for me!