I just purchased my first vials for intrauterine insemination (IUI)! I was terrified to pull the trigger, but I feel surprisingly excited and relieved! After almost 4 years of “thinking” it feels so good to take control and actually move forward. I thought it might make me really sad to actually purchase the vials because it would mean it is all becoming very real that I’m doing it on my own. But it actually made me feel so happy to know it is now becoming real and I am one step closer to having a baby!
After purchasing, I called my mom and announced, “I am now the proud owner of $4000 worth of semen!” We both laughed hysterically. When I told her I joined the “Semen Club” to get special discounts and offers, she almost peed her pants!! I have found that keeping a sense of humor about this whole crazy, insane, emotional process has been so helpful. I know it might be a long road ahead to get to the point of actually holding a baby in my arms, so it’s either laugh or cry, and right now I am laughing. I’m sure there will be many tears in the months ahead, so I am going to savor this moment, marinate in the pride I feel for taking such a difficult step, and try to carry the feeling with me throughout the IUI.